Keep Going or Give It Up?

You bought the hype, now what? The preginning is when you decide to keep going or give it up. You know what I mean. Like the time you bought that gym membership, because it was such a great deal, and you just never did find the time to actually use it? That was the preginnng. You had an idea. You even went to the gym. You got your picture on the card and everything. You might have even gone a few times. But you never really began, because if you did, your thoughts about going would have changed. You would have found more reasons to keep going.

It's important to get this. Preginning is where you hope for things to change. It's where you hope that you have the courage to make the decisions that will actually make a difference.  It's where you make a fool out of yourself, feel completely out of place, wish you were different, and even cry for lack of knowing what else to do with all the emotions you feel about not wanting to fail one more time. The preginning is where you find yourself if you have never accomplished the thing you wish you could. Inside, I'm a runner. I can sprint, I can even jump hurdles. I can do anything. It's getting the iNside to come out, that I have struggled with all my life. I have let myself be talked out of doing what I really want to do, because I was "too big," "too slow," "not ready for this type of program." But what it really boiled down to... I was not ready to change my way of thinking.